On A Side Note: The Withdrawal

I have fallen in love. I wish I didn't. These feelings are killing me. I gave too much of myself and had not received the same amount of devotion. I shouldn't be complaining. Its selfish of me. I feel that communication with my loved one is being severed. That's what hurts the most. For months I have been in constant communication with my love until recently. Things started to slow down between us. I wanted more from him than I deserved. We played games, talked life, shared experiences. He was being generous but it came to an end. I got so caught up into it that I'm suffering from a communication withdrawal. No texts, no calls, no emails, no updates. I stare at my phone for hours during the day. Nothing. I hold my phone while I sleep, just in case I might receive a late night text. Nothing. You might wonder, why don't I text him if I miss him? I figured, if he really wanted to communicate with me, he would. I am tired of forcing myself on him. The situation is unrequited. Unrequited love. I expected this in the beginning. That it would end this way. I feel hurt. I regret allowing myself to have these feelings. It always ends this way.