So the finalized date of the challenge is set for September 1st. The days leading up are preparation for my 90 day life change. As I prepare for this day I am becoming self-aware of many things. Changing the slightest habits has opened my mind to a flood of emotions, some confusing and unsettling. This is really going to be an emotional challenge as well as a physical one.
I don’t know where to start in describing how I feel. That’s always been a problem for me. It’s easier to describe how others feel when placed in my situation. But since this is completely about me, I don’t have a choice but to describe me. To sum it up, I don’t like to prove people right. I have had many assumptions and theories about me, which for most I have proven wrong. Now, I have hit an awe inspiring dilemma…
This is a life style change; Body, Mind, and Spirit. Why is this becoming an issue? Because I am taking this challenge primarily to get something I want: a desired result. So as I begin to prepare for this, I am flooded with thoughts of things I want. Unfortunately, I am not on the right path of achieving what I want, but on things related to what I want. My love life for instance, is at a point of regret and denial. I have been denying that it is at a point that I do not want. I have regrets about not doing things differently in the beginning, not thinking things through. I feel like I initiated too much, only to have a shadow of a desired result. But since this section is dedicated to body change, rather than relationship, I’ll save the later for another time.
So what have I been eating to prepare for my day of glory? Day one of prep I ate 4 times in that day. Breakfast, followed by lunch, then snack, then dinner. Today was a late brunch and side snack. I think I will go into detail about the actual foods I consume when the challenge begins.
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